Just For Today

Chatterbox. You've had this experience, right? You reach a point where your head feels like it just might explode? Brain overload. For me, it comes in the form of my "committee" jabbering about this or that. While I've accomplished one of my goals of simplifying my life [thank you Italy for teaching me about quality vs. quantity], I am still quite capable of complicating it by jamming too many square pegs into round holes. The noise it makes can be deafening.

Sloth. One of the seven deadly sins, right? It is also one of my major character defects and a huge contributor to the overwhelmed panic I throw at myself. A master procrastinator, it is when I get short of breath and that head popping off thing starts to occur, that I know I need to look at what I'm putting off today in favor of more enjoyable activities. It always seems to coincide with a new hobby.

Awareness. It's a beautiful thing, right? That I can even connect the dots between why the chatter is there, the signs of panic before it gets out of control and what I can do about is a miracle. In years past, I couldn't shuffle by step one [noticing the committee] before I'd pour myself the first glass of wine. Before long, the bottle would be empty and the "oh whoas me" would begin. I don't do that today. I have the awareness ~ what a gift.

Easy Does It. A procrastinator's dream slogan, right? Thank G-d I have that awareness today. While I don't need to go full bore plowing through that to do list, I also don't need to take the "easy does it" approach to the Nth degree and twist it into, "don't bother doing it at all". I am acutely aware of this trap I set for myself from time to time. So, just for today, I'm going to take it one next-right-thing at a time. It does a girls brain good.